Now what? Now, I try to ignore people… again!
The mind is amazing, so amazing that it only retains the details of things that are current and important to our day-to-day lives; everything else it tucks away in the crevices of our minds. When I was working hard to increase my health and decrease my weight down from 200 lbs to 148 lbs, it was a rare day that I did not have to endure someones ignorance, negativity or outright meanness. As I started down my path to better eating and exercise I was astonished at how rude and insensitive people could be. The more I went from a size 18 to a healthy size for my height, (not size zero or size two, but) a size six, the more criticism I got.
As I said in my post weight loss criticism:
Why is it that people have very little or no reservation about criticizing you, to your face, if you’re thin? When I was overweight I don’t recall anyone telling me I was fat. No one gave me their opinion about going to the gym, or not. No one questioned or criticized my food choices…. . If I gained the weight back, I guarantee no one would say a word to me.
Well, I inadvertently proved my theory. Over the past year and a half, I gained back almost 20lbs and no one said a single word, not one. [repeat that to yourself, slowly] Now, over the past month, as I have tried to get back to eating healthier and exercising I can not count how many times Ive had people tell me what, and how much, I should eat. Apparently I forgot how annoying people were before because once again I was quickly annoyed.
I’m not doing anything drastic. I don’t starve myself. I’m not on a liquid diet. I’m not walking around with a bag of carrots and celery sticks with my stomach growling. I have all three meals and a bunch of snacks in between. Ive talked about my meals in numerous posts.
So, just the other day, at work, a bunch of coworkers were gathered around a table where there was some kettle corn and some chocolate. As I was staring at the bag of chocolate trying to read the percentage of cocoa, a coworker grabbed the bag, took out a piece of chocolate and said, Here, have one. I politely said, No, Ive already had two. She replied, Oh that’s not enough, have another. REALLY?
To be honest, my body biologically did not need even one piece of chocolate. Nonetheless, being true to my own cravings I ate one, and then another. You mean to tell me I was depriving myself? That wasn’t enough? I don’t get it. Had I eaten half the bag, do you think she would have said anything to me? Nope, absolutely not. Instead, she would have whispered how greedy I am to the other coworkers… behind my back. And you know what, I would have been ok with that because I truly don’t want to hear anyone’s opinion of what and how much I should eat. So likewise, if anyone thinks I’m not eating enough chocolate, can they please whisper that crap to the other coworkers, behind my back?!!?!?! Please and thank you!
